Can I just feel jealous in peace?

Thank you for driving your Lamborghini in front of me. I now have something new to want.

It took me a while to unlearn the false accusations against jealousy. That jealousy isn’t an inherently bad thing. As a child, it was difficult for me to hide feelings of jealousy and I was routinely blamed for having them. Jealousy, from what I can remember, was triggered when I saw something I wanted. It ignited a sense of excitement in me, and does so to this day.

We confuse jealousy with envy when really, I just want the same Lamborghini you have. I don’t want to rob you of the Lamborghini you have.

So let’s just take jealousy for what it is: a normal human reaction that we can (and should) use to our advantage.

Jealousy complements my life because it always makes me want something, and I don’t know who I am when I dont want something. If at any given moment I don’t have a sense of want, I feel a bit empty. Unmotivated. Unstimulated. Surely life has a lot more to offer than what I’ve already attained, right? Surely there’s more to life. Whatever …